take a step and you'll see

18x36", acrylic on canvas

i have a deep connection to water, probably because i grew up in a coastal town...and as i got older, amid teenage angst and adult ruminations, being near the water became a sort of therapeutic salve for me.  standing at the edge of the ocean watching faithful rhythmic waves and bigness of it all reminds me to find perspective, breathing deeper in the naturally cleaner air i can't help but exhale some stress, hearing gulls and waves instead of traffic or technology...all these things help bring me back to who i am, and simplify my oft swirling thoughts.  lakeside, peering into water close to me, as it reflects the sky and has it's own rhythm of gentler waves, i tend to find calmness in the patterns of rocks and light and shadow.  i settle down.

though my love for being near water has always been so strong, being in it has always been a different story.  unless i can see what is going on around me and exactly what i'm going to step on or touch, there is a paralyzing fear that grips me.  rational logic completely vanishes; i can't breathe, panic sets in and i just want out.

so i find it interesting how much i have paralleled this in life at times.  a few (ok, a lot of) blind turns have cost me in the past, and as a result, i have adapted to rely on my immediate view and present situation to keep my perspective.  there is value in that, of course...but there is also value in taking a breath and taking a step, even with limited vision beyond the present...clinging to the faith that the bigger world around me will still hold me, even if for the moment i'm not sure how.

karen's angel

8x10", acrylic on canvas

i don't usually post commission pieces on my blog or website, mainly because they are often a personal and private nature between myself and the client, plus usually not my own design or concept.  not to mention, i rarely photograph them in progress.  i also rarely paint a piece using the grisaille method, but this time i did...AND i photographed it during progression!  the main challenge of this painting was obviously the faded photo and poem printed over it, so the simplest way to stay on track and develop it in an organized fashion with less risk of overemphasizing color here or there, seemed to be to take care of the lights and darks first, then glaze with color.  i have to admit, as i painted this sweet puppy, i pretty much fell in love with her.  hopefully i captured the innocence and simplicity of her love for her guardian, in an un-stylized, direct way.  

{and of course, i had supervision...}

organic cherry

5 x 7", oil on canvas

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orange slice

4 x 6", oil on canvas

cherries reflecting windows

5 x 7", acrylic on canvas

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hummingbird

6 x 8", oil on cradled wood panel

yes, this is reworked from the painting a few weeks back - this darling little girl sitting on her feeder in arizona.  the background never sat right with me: the color, though accurate from the original photo, did nothing for the painting, in my opinion, and the look overall was too static. here's to experimentation and never letting a painting become too precious. :-)

cherries in pyrex dish

5x7", acrylic on canvas

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x's and o's

6x6", acrylic on canvas

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cherries

6x8", acrylic on canvas

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{behind the scenes}

therapy

6x6", oil on cradled wood panel

mural mosaic project 2013

nfs

i was honored to be asked to participate in another mural mosaic project, this time for the upcoming canada games being held this august in sherbrooke, quebec.  

how it works is, they send each artist a panel with a color painted on it, or sometimes a blend of colors, that one uses as a guide to then paint a relevant scene (in this case, a sport theme).  no one knows the final image that will be assembled from all the painted panels put together, so the unveilings are always a pretty neat surprise!  

http://www.muralmosaic.com/sports.html

hummingbird

6 x 8", oil on cradled wood panel

a little girl on her much-frequented feeder in an arizona back yard - keeping an eye out inbetween sips!  definitely one of the highlights of a relaxing trip down south this past winter!

meditation - work in progress #2

meditation - work in progress #1

18x36", acrylic on canvas

when every part of you wants to turn around

8x8", acrylic on cradled wood panel

blueberries

6x6" acrylic on linen

 

blueberries - work in progress

6x6", acrylic on linen

no berries...yet.  :-)  

recalibration

6x6", acrylic on cradled wood panel

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i'm in transition.  the old routes feel limiting, but the new ones don't exist yet.  experimentation with looseness feels like i don't care.  tightness feels (and appears to me) like tightness.  someone said to me "your paintings seem lighter lately" and i thought to myself yes, if lighter equals shallow...the real deal is festering, glowing, surfacing, but i haven't been able to get a real glimpse of it yet.

so i paint.  at least it isn't paralyzing me, which has happened before.  this time it's as if i need to push through it - show up, as they say, and just move the brush.  exercise.  no weighty commitment in every piece, no analysis of "is it done?".  just paint...and wait for the water to clear.

thanks for coming along for the ride.

checked out again

6x8" acrylic on cradled wood panel

the crash

6x8", acrylic on wood panel

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